I am a fixer and a doer.
This means that I don’t particularly like to sit around talking about problems, and instead I like to FIX them. With such a “FIX and DO attitude,” I have been able to achieve a lot of professional success, but my emotional as well as spiritual journeys are a work in progress.
For instance, I woke up one day in my twenties and decided I wanted to be a wife and mother. The only problem was that I wasn’t even in a relationship. As a result I tried to FIX my singleness by entering the dating world without God’s will, anointment or guidance. I was in a single season for a reason, and stepping my way out of God’s will to FIX my singleness resulted in a lot of unnecessary heartache. Therefore I learned the critical lesson that I cannot DO this life on my own. I need God at the center of my world, and when I step out of the Lord’s will, my life falls apart.
God hasn’t left us to be hopeless about the future or miserable in singleness. He’s invited us to find joy in the little things, to look patiently for His provision and to practice faithfulness here and now. When I gave up on dating and accepted my singleness, my future husband—who was a person from my childhood—called me up out of the blue because he happened to be visiting the city I lived in. God accomplished in two seconds what I had spent years trying to DO on my own, and He gave me my blessed life partner who was anointed in the Lord’s will according to God’s plans for our marriage.
For many years I had a progressive form of arthritis that was compromising my health and mobility to the point where I was struggling walking. Literally in two seconds, God provided health deliverance and solutions for me after what was an agonizing battle of 10 years on my own. I had access to medication I needed and was booked for full knee-replacement surgery.
My greatest frustration in life really comes from trying to FIX situations my way and DO things in my timing.
Often I try to fit God into my timetable as I chart a course and move forward trying to accomplish, FIX and DO even more things. I exhaust myself to the bone, when what I really need to do is enter into God’s rest and let the Lord do in two seconds what I am wearing myself out doing on my own. Also I have to let God DO things His way, and my best efforts are spent just getting out of the way.
The truth is that I need to stop making the mistake of trying to DO this life on my own. God has a plan for my life, and He wants what is best for me (John 10:10).
If I am not careful I can FIX and DO my way, in my will, right out of His plans.
Often the best solution is to do LESS and wait on God MORE. God will move my circumstances and accomplish His purposes in two seconds, if I am prepared to just simply wait as well as trust that there is a reason I am in a season of frustration.